Sunday, February 23rd, I was sitting in a meeting with one of the ministers at church. As is customary when you go into a meeting, we exchanged pleasantries. I told her that I was sitting in expectancy. She smiled and said ok. I went onto say that I've been feeling this way for a while now and I can't explain it nor did she ask me to. I've been in this place before. Waiting on God, expecting Him to do something in my life but not sure what He is about to do. It has been over 6 years that I've been in this place. The the feeling was just as strong then as it is now. A week later, Sunday, March 1st, another minister was preaching that Sunday and spoke a word to me - expect something from God. YES!!!! Confirmation.
Understand this, with or without this word being spoken to me, I would still be sitting in expectancy. WHY?? Because I've been here before. I know what this feeling is. I know that this feeling is the spirit within me gearing up and getting excited. What am I expecting??? I have no idea. I can't name it or explain it. BUT, I can claim it!!!! I know that it's mine. No devil in hell can stop it nor can any man's prayers stop this. This is ordained from the heavens.
How do I know? Today, sitting at my desk, God brought a song back to my memory - the Clark Sisters - "Expect Your Miracle". Are you following me now????!!!! When God has ordained something in your life don't worry about it. Don't time it. Don't stress it. Bless God for it and move on. Every time He reminds me that He is moving, I bless Him. Every time He shows up, I bless Him. When He speaks to me, I thank Him for thinking me worthy to stop by and see about me. People may say, well you're His so of course He would stop by. But, what about those times I didn't listen, didn't obey. Don't you know He could have turned me over when I was being disobedient - Romans 1:28 "And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;" Yes, I thank Him for stopping by and seeing about me. I understand that there is no difference between me and the woman with the issue of blood (Luke 8:43-48). I'm just that desperate to see the Lord, to touch the hem of His garment.
My thirst for the goodness of Jesus doesn't stop, even when it has been low, even through the rough times. Let me real - through those really hard times, the times I didn't think I would make it, the times that I cried myself to sleep - it wasn't my momma or my daddy that I called out for. I remember the lyrics to this song - "momma may have and poppa may have, but God bless the child that got it's own". It's own what I use to wonder. Now, I know. It's own relationship. It's own foundation in the Lord. It's own song to sing and dream to dream. God bless that child. The one that stands on the cliff with their head back and sings praises to the Lord even knowing that the enemy is on their back. That child that pushes past the you never will, you can't and says God says yes. That child that knows that God controls everything and all things. That child that has a mind to listen and a heart to hear what says the Lord. That child that can worship in spirit and in truth even when they are knocking on her door to collect the car. That child!!! This is why I live in expectancy. Because He already has blessed my life. Because with each breath He gives me, I understand that He is the giver of life and life eternally.
My season,- correction from God, my time - of expectancy is here. There are seasons that I go through and haven't sat in expectancy. There are seasons that I go through with worship and praise because He;s doing enough in my life. But, this season!!! This Season!!!! This season is something different. This is a season that I can't tell you what is on the horizon but I wait and bless Him in the meantime.
There it is - that thing that I was waiting on as I wrote this blog - the meantime. That's where we can get lost. Here's the issue - we are putting a time limit on the blessing. Stop right there. Are you entitled to this? No. If God does it's because it is best for you. If God doesn't it's because it is best for you. Romans 8:28 didn't say some things work together for the good but ALL things work together for the good.... Understand, He is working it all out for our good, even when it feels like I'm walking through the fires of hell. Bless God for the trial as you move through. Bless Him that He thought enough of you for you to be tested (JOB!!!)
Come on and bless the Lord with me!!!
Be A Blessing and not Just Blessed
- - Nakya