I've always had the impression of myself that I was a good girl but that I should never think more highly of myself than I am. I wasn't taught this in a bad way but over time, my mind heard whispers that changed the teaching of humility into low self-esteem. This is what happens when we allow our imaginations to speak to us instead of leaning on the lessons that God gives us. As a child, I didn't know any better. However, as an adult, I've learned (and continue to learn) that I'm more than I think I am. I don't walk around thinking I'm all that and a bag of chips, but I know that I'm more than I ever thought I was. As my friend Gloria would say - I'm the King's Daughter. Knowing who I am but more importantly whose I am has endeared me to me. I've learned that I love my own company. I'm funny. I'm smart. I'm strong. I'm beautiful. I am a divine creation made in the image of the King, created for His sole purpose.
I was recently speaking to a young lady who was a mirror image of myself years ago. I heard her speak less of herself and instantly remembered the feeling. The woman I am, raised up against the demon that spoke and shared part of my testimony. I told this young lady what I would tell anyone - You Are More!!! Love Yourself More!!! I told her something that I had to do for myself - write a list of all the things I'm good at and each morning stand in the mirror and recite that list to myself. Little by little, increase the list thereby increasing your love for yourself. When you can stand in the mirror and look yourself (your demon) in the eye and tell it who you are, you are learning to conquer the demon. Standing up for myself doesn't take away from my humility. It doesn't make me arrogant or vain. It makes me realize that I am a divine creation, made purposely just the way I am. I can't handle this call or fulfill my purpose if I can't hold my head up and know that I am equipped to do just what He's called me to do.
Who are you?? Who do you tell yourself that you are? What do you speak to yourself in the mirror?
Be A Blessing and Not Just Blessed
- - Nakya